Welcome to the site! I'm not a newbie, but hey, there are a few here. You'll have to enter the chatbox to find the little blighters though.
"I lost someone... very close to me. One day they were there... and then it all just fell apart.They died. And it broke me. I don't feel anymore. I don't feel sad... I don't feel scared... I don't feel happy. I'm just... here. That's my strength. That's why I'm alive."